T-shirt coming soon "AK RAWK STAR"

SUPER HERO TRAINING CLASSES
Sundays at 5PM @ The Crystal Palace (my raw kitchen)
$25 for drop in or $100 for five classes.
RSVP for directions BananimalR@aol.com

Each week we will learn to make a simple delicious recipe you can easily add in to your busy life, a talk about the value of new and exciting ideas each week, question and answer sessions, how to tap into more source power, heightened intuition and your other latent super hero powers waiting to be tapped into...plus a delicious raw meal!

Raw cacao powder and "super-hero trail mix" available each week or with any order.

Raw personal chef--how to order:

There are currently no restaurants or caterers in town offering raw gourmet meals. Until I open RA, I operate out of my private kitchen to insure no cross contamination that might come from a local commercial kitchen. I can prepare meals for you to last a few days, or serve a few people at your event. Rather than offer up a standard package, I prefer to sit with my client and find out exactly what they want and need, what kind of health challenges they may have, or allergies, and cater specifically to your needs and desires, therefore, prices and preparation times are going to vary, but here are some basic ideas of what I can do for you...and in general, I can usually conceptualize a way to recreate your favorite comfort food in a raw delicious format...so don't consider this list by any means a complete idea of what is available to you, from me ;) My services cost less than an evening out with friends at a gourmet restaurant, minimum order is $150 which generally serves 4 or yourself for a few days, depending on ingredients and what you want. The bigger the order, the more choices.

Hire me to prepare a meal for you and your friends, or organize a class of at least 5people willing to pay $25 per person (or you are willing to pay for them) for a lecture and potluck style meal in my kitchen or yours.
I am open to bartering and getting back to our roots, literally!
Contact me for a quote and consultation: Bananimalr@aol.com



zuchini pasta putanesca, jicama raw-violi, stuffed flax pocket (not-hot pocket)

bell boats

mini heart pizza

raw-zagna

thai spring rolls with coconut wrapper and sushi

bird's eye sushi


potluck!

A picture says a Million words...words fail~

Ordinance 64 aims to add "non-heterosexual" (Lesbian, gay, bi-sexual, transgendered)people under the list of citizens who would be illegal to discriminate against in the work place, housing ect. I AM ONE OF THESE PEOPLE...AND SO ARE YOU IF YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE. Jerry Prevo has been out in full force handing out red shirts and signs to oppose ordinance 64. We have GOT to show them that red does not outnumber blue because they ask for a show of hands from everyone in the assembly who agrees with each speaker. The Assembly has been taking testimony from the public for almost a month now. I am 576 on the list to have 3 minutes to voice in favor of this ordinance passing. It is time to organize and rally the troops! NEXT MEETING- JULY 7th- Loussac Library- 3PM (to get a seat, or you will have to play on the lawn and in the lobby). WEAR BLUE!!


I was sixteen when students from the entire Anchorage school district organized on the library lawn to protest teacher pay cuts...we had to cut class to do it...wow...how did the word spread through the grapevine before cell phones, blogging and facebook? It is a good thing I didn't trip in a puddle cause I would have drowned with all those rosaries on...childhood memories.


Oh CRAP! Who forgot to send the memo to Miss AK that Red is WAY totally last season.

honest to a fault...oops, he forgot loud, obnoxious and under-educated. Did he really spell racist with an S? Apparently there is a following just for the spelling of the word in this way...it is in the "Urban Dictionary" as this: What happens when someone calls conservatives fascists and racists so much in their trolling that their words begin to run together.
The word rascist has a cult following on the ProtestWarrior forum.

Ordinance 64--Raw perspective

P.RE-S.CRIPT : *I sat at the assembly meeting for five hours…and an hour in line before that to get my awesome seat, but the hatred was sickening, and shortly after the guy in the red shirt sat next to me wearing too much perfume, I started getting nauseous and toxic headache…when a kid claiming he had explored every aspect of his sexuality and concluded that he was not gay and that homosexuality was not the opposite of heterosexuality but the opposite of holiness I reached my limit of ignorance and had to depart…*

I now sit in the front row of the June 23, 2009 Assembly meeting and I move to object to the entire system of government on the grounds that the whole thing is a silly ludicrous circus based on drama games that we could all now choose to remove our energy from if so desired. This is sort of challenging to do when your mind is fogged and clogged with toxins. Everything makes so much more sense when the freedom to reconnect wholly with spirit is enacted by the freedom of the movement of energy through the body, also identified by Chinese Medicine as Qi or “Chi” or in Ayurvedic medicine “prana”—or life force energy…*there was a notable lack of life force energy in the assembly chambers*

“I now choose to accept my mission and responsibility as a proponent of the love/light energy and allow the power and abundance that comes with this responsibility to flow effortlessly into my life.” I am proposing this as the new mantra of the leaders now choosing to step forward and claim what is ours, and become aware of our status as shepherds of the new energy and thus lead the way for all who are stepping forward into the next level of our evolution…it is happening whether we are aware or wanting of it knowingly or not…on a subconscious level this is what we have created and it is a long time in the making.

Raw food lifestyle negates all the necessity for these silly laws they are spending all this time playing around with. It just goes to show how bored people are with life that they have to create all these games. When you come back to life, TRUE LIVING, you come back to MAGIC. There is no boredom anymore…you get mesmerized by the slightest things…things you didn’t even see before like auras, ormus, the sparkle in a rock that once looked gray, the sway of a flower by no apparent breeze…it is truly a magical place to live and a magical time to be here watching the best of times meeting the worst of times, and the inner knowing that we are going to live through this transition and actually see the future of many generations…I am looking forward to the big belly chuckle we are going to have when we all sit around looking back on the times we sat in the little rooms discussing the miniscule nuances of what to do with our garbage, literally, metaphorically and metaphysically…

The last time I was at an assembly meeting, a bunch of people from the local music and art scene were here to support a liquor license transfer for a “woulda-been” bar called the “Thirsty Monk” but so many people in that community were opposed because of the potential cliental were known as “Alternative” and perhaps not responsible enough to be in charge of policing their own drinking behaviors. It was ironic tonight that I watched a liquor license transfer to the Marx Brothers museum without a peep from anyone. Apparently the artist communities who support the museum are different from the artist community who support music. Some things still baffle me.

I didn’t come here for any other reason than to support love, in all it’s many shapes, sizes and colors…I love this day, this flower, this breeze, this planet, these people…yes even you crazy heads wearing red shirts standing up for hate…it’s ironic then that the leading cause of death is hate…heart attacks kill more people than anything…closed heart chakra…hate…hate kills…love heals…I live for love…and I love you—YES YOU!!!!!

I actually listened to a young woman in a red shirt claim that she was discriminated against because a man dressed in women’s clothing was in the women’s bathroom and the police wouldn’t do anything about it. She said, “that’s not fair to me and I don’t want to live my life in fear.” Whether or not a person is Gay is still out to lunch on the issue of nature versus nurture…we may never answer that question, but what you feel is definitely a choice and you can choose one of two types of emotion…love based, or fear based…so living in fear is a choice…no ordinance, no color of shirt, and no man in your bathroom is going to make that choice for you…you choose love or you choose fear with every breath you take…I learned a lot tonight, but one thing was clearly reconfirmed…it’s really time to evolve people…lets get a move on…I like to move it move it…bust a move~All is One~

The time for LOVE is always NOW

I danced for 3 solid hours, with just a couple bathroom breaks, to which I ran full speed back and forth, just because I felt like it, on the Loussac library lawn of all places. Oridinace 64, which aims to prevent discrimation against "non-heterosexual" people, has been hearing public testimony since last Tuesday's assembly meeting, and I can't remember when the library lawn was so lit up since I was in highschool and kids from the entire Anchorage school district cut class to protest some proposed teacher paycuts. Those against the ordinace wore red, and those on the side of love wore blue and other colors...lots of colors and rainbows. My daughter, who knew nothing of any of this ordinance or my plans to attend the demonstration, got out of the shower and chose a blue dress to wear for the day. Clear indication of her powerful Crystal Child intuition. On the way to the library lawn she asked me why so many people were wearing red and holding signs. I told her that some people think you should be able to love whoever you want and be able to hold their hand and not get bothered for it, and some people don't agree, and they are wearing red. She told me she thought anyone should be allowed to hold hands and love each other and so she didn't want to be on the red team. I told her, "there aren't any teams honey, just choices." But for the sake of humor, the blue "team" showed up with a DJ and my booty started shaking as soon as I got there and it never stopped...at one point Chaplan held the letter I in a group of people collectively carrying the word EQUALITY. After that, a crowd had finally collected to join in the dancing and the library lawn was morphed into a dance floor--I never stopped dancing until after about 3 hours my body finally said, he, that's about enough...Chaplan became the center of the dance floor, and was filmed and photographed throughout the day...she expressed that it was too bad her brother wasn't there cause he would have had fun...tomorrow is another day and he will be with us. Someone who knew I was looking for a cameraman for Saturday's show approached a camera man who found me online later this evening and the shoot is on! Thankyou Universe...sigh, what a wonderful world...rest assured my friends, love always wins...change is happening...we are it, and we are enjoying the journey, now aren't we...indeed, and so it is~

new and old beginnings...

give fear an inch and it'll dig you a big hole...in no time...but hold strong to knowing all is well, even if you can't tell from looking, and watch the magic bloom right before your eyes...something you didn't even know you were doing was just following your bliss leads to this cup overflowing uncreakable waterfall...it just flows and flows and you can't stop it...I've heard this saying to be careful what you wish for because you just might get it...stop wishing, get clarity on what you want, and then open to receive it...but make the room, do the clear cutting...be a flowist...go where your joy takes you and you get into the Universal flow and that ever present knowing that it is all purposeful...
Today was slash and burn clearcutting and new seedlings sprouted all in such a short spanse of time there wasn't any room to get scared...now that is magic.

My June Events Calendar:

Saturday June 13th -7pm-midnight, Organic Oasis "Aurora" fundraiser featuring:
Mike Gorder
Mike Olson
George Faust
Tom Christ
TOT
Brian Lazer
Snack Pharm
I will also perform and give a chat about the movie plot and the inspiration behind making it
$5 suggested donation

Saturday June 20th 10PM Chilkoots parking lot beer garden, after Puddle of Mudd concert
on a technicality, Puddle of Mudd is opening for me...how cool is that.
I have a free ticket if you are a videographer with a HD camera.

Saturday June 27th 6-8PM Palmer United Protestant Presbyterian Church
Alaska Vegetarian Society has invited me to be a guest speaker at their monthly potluck to tell my story about raw foods and perform a few songs
Info here: www.alaskaveg.org

Sunday June 28th 4PM Superfoods 101
The Living Room Club -- class and a raw meal $25
contact me to RSVP Bananimalr@aol.com

Every Monday Open-mic hostess at TimeOut Lounge--4600 Old Seward

Dear Anonymous

At every level of our respective journey, we find soulmates to help with the work of personal progress. We come here in soul groups with goals, and we help each other to reach those goals. I myself have had the great honor, joy and privledge of meeting and learning from my many many soul mate friends and lovers. Most of my soul mates have helped me to grow so quickly I had to leave them because I literally out-grew them. But thanks to the law of attraction a new batch always springs forth! And I surely could tell the new mates the old mates go on to attract a few choice points of interest, but we all attract that which is for our highest good, our own experiences, our own lessons, in the discovery of finding out our next greatest version of ourselves and it is not my job to interfere with your lessons. So I leave it to my fellow soul mates to discover each other...the things I would warn you about the men I have left are usually a matter of public record, if you so desire a rap sheet of your current lover, its actually online through the wubbulous world of the internet. Fortunately for my ex-lovers, I don't feel it is my duty to inform anyone of anything I discovered through our private interactions...because people are our mirrors, usually we are learning about ourselves by learning about others intimately and the faster we can recognize this, the faster we evolve. So if you feel it is your duty to inform me that a soul mate of yours who is also a soul mate of mine loves too deeply and too quickly I would suggest you investigate that within yourself and discover the pearl in the oyster...but don't discard the oyster when you cut out the pearl...that's where the meat is...in the love...because you can never love too deeply or for too long or for too short...love is always right all ways. When it hurts, it's not love. Maybe it started as love but one side grew in a direction that wouldn't allow the branches to flower if they did not expand. Our soul group needs to grow together and get tighter, not more separate...when two are attracted by the magical powers of energetic magnetics, there is a mission to be completed...it may last a lifetime, it may not...I've cancelled two weddings out of gut instinct. I've born 2 children of 2 different soul mates...you can rest assured and sleep well at night knowing I don't live in a delusion of the mysteries of time and what it does to people. I also don't live out of fear based thinking...I live out of love and always answering the question, "what would love do" with the answer being, "if it feels right, do it." The tree you grow doesn't always look like you might have expected when you planted the seed, but it was in the growth of the tree that the beauty was assimilated. And it all comes back round to food...when you stop eating pesticides, fungacides, larvacides, toxic waste, pasterized, homogenized, puss filled, blood filled, hate filled, greed packed nutrient deficient food and start nourishing your body, heart, mind and soul, the fog clears...you see the forest for the trees...literally! And vibrantly green--just like the light of the Universe that flows green straight out of your heart chakra...and love is the solution, your daily anecdote to baffling ignorance and blatant hate running rampant on beautiful mother gaia--everyday you choose--choose to eat love, breath love and be love...love yourself enough to let the light in and let yourself find it...every little thing just wants love...give it....there is plenty for all~

post script: I don't approve anonymous comments unless they are poignant and devoid of agenda

ASK CRYSTAL

I am out there...and in here...and all over the wubbulous world of internet, putting out roots in my efforts to inspire humanity. A beautiful life sustaining tree is blossoming and it's the most glorious sight to behold. Through many avenues the questions come...I feel like I put a great deal of energy towards answering the questions of the curious...stillness speaks, and that is where we find the answers...and the "law of attraction" or "what you believe is what you receive" is trumped by "YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT." Now there is a big difference between someone who came to raw foods as a solution to a problem that had no other answer by conventional means, and through who's discovery every question is solved in the process of taking the puzzle apart instead of putting it together...and someone who is just curious "why do you eat raw...what is so important about it?" The simple answer is, you'll know if you do it! The irony is, you'll never know if you don't! I can't explain to you what you will experience if you go raw because it is beyond words...words fail. Show me a man who says, "I'll believe it when I see it!" and I'll show you a man who is going to continue to see what he believes...because what you believe is what you see, not vice versa...your outer world is a reflection of your inner world...if your cells are dying inside, your attention will turn to all outside of you that dies...sometimes this can be metaphoric...parts of us that are no longer useful to us must die...habits, negative thinking,...but nothing wants to die...instinctively we hold hard to this organic house we find our spirit housed in...why is the will to live so strong? What is consciousness and what happens "if" we die? Do we really have to die? Doesn't everything die? There are, on the planet right now, trees that are around 5000 years old. What is the consciousness of a tree that has been alive that long? It doesn't go looking for anything. It gets everything it needs out of the ground and the air. What can we learn from this tree? It was here before everyone alive now was born and it will outlive many of them. A tree may shed leaves through cycles of seasons, but with each new arrival of light and heat new growth will spring forth. A blanket of snow and ice may cover the ground, but the roots beneath the soil remain alive and the leaves shoot forth in your lawn every spring...no need to replant your grass every year, it grows back! It is thoughts and things that destroy and thoughts are things. If a pest comes along and eats up the roots of that 5000 year old tree, it may fall...but the tree itself does not think of dying...it thrives because all it knows is thriving. And that is what the inner light that is you knows...the inner light that is love and peace and joy only knows thriving...and when you clear the fog, you will remember who you are and you will know that you live forever...you will remember and so you shall become that which you know. Where your attention flows, your energy goes. When I started to invoke the law of attraction, I noticed that I always got a great parking spot because I believed I would...the Universe would line it all up for me because I had faith in that tiny thing. It still happens and I don't think about it a bit, but I still marvel at it and try to remember to say thankyou everytime. I also used to grumble all through the grocery store...why do I always get the crappy damn grocery cart with the wobbly wheel that is hard to push. Imagine how long it took me to recognize it was my own damn fault for believing I was gonna get that crappy cart. That tiny little thought was a VERY difficult belief to change, believe it or not, but I finally did...I finally put my full faith into getting a perfect shopping cart everytime, and now I do, at least about 89% of the time...which is way better than than the 15% I was formerly operating at. It takes a tiny tip of the scale to recognize the difference between believing what you see and seeing what you believe, since it's challenging because of their inter-relations. And when you "know" you'll "see" and when you go within you'll know, but it takes a clear mind to go within and come back out with anything useful.
I believe that the body doesn't have to die, but rather it is made to evolve towards needing very little to survive and operate more like an ethereal body, able to transcend space and time...and that the same spark of light that keeps the 5000 year old tree alive is the spark of consciousness that exists within us, and it is all connected in a never ending web of light...it will take full self-actualization (knowing, not just remembering you are pure energy) to activate the ascension process, and it is slow going with so many in the collective consciousness believing only what they see because it is all they believe...but with the ushering in of the new energy, the old energy is falling away...you will aclimate or you will leave...you will do it by clear and present joyful choice, or you will do it subconsciously, but one way or another you will make a choice...I have made the choice to accept only beauty and joy and that is all I see...forever and ever, amen. Yes, I am still evolving...no I am not perfect...no I do not have all the answers, but I have some good ones, and now is it not remarkable that I have spent my life answering my own questions to have people seek me out for them, but not just that I have the answers to give, but that you come to me believing I have the answers...I am filled with joyful tears at the honor of this responsibility. I welcome and honor your questions and treat them with the joyful intetion of our collective evolution towards Paradise on Earth.
Send any question you think I may be able to answer for you to:
Bananimalr@aol.com
I won't use your name unless you ask me to~

We are the Ones we have been waiting for-planting fruit with tears

May came in spittin fire and the residual freckles are happily nestled across the bridge of my nose and cheek bones...June is drizzling in with much energetic work to be done, clearcutting for room to plant the crops that will sustain us through winter. I love the metaphor of seasons. Now is a huge time of change on a certain level for those of us who have decided to stay with Mother Earth through the energy transition, and for those of us waffling on the idea, now is a time of "shit or get off the pot" as my Dad used to say. He is now lying in bed slowly dying of cancer of the bladder. After two conventional operations failed to prevent it from growing back they told him he needed a replacement bladder to which he said no thanks, I'll try holistic medicine. Unfortunately, holistic medicine is the mind body spirit approach, and he won't change certain things that are going into his mind body and spirit, thus the body doesn't have the "power" to "fight" the dis-ease. He looks like he no longer has the strength to be angry, but his house is still filled with poison and your house is a relfection of your body. For those wishing to truly change their health and thusly empower their life in every area, the recipe is really simple. First, get alkaline...cancer, or any other illness, can't grow in an alkaline environment...so when you eat a diet rich in fresh raw organic produce and super foods, you give your system the fuel to expel the toxins that are weighing you down. These toxins, present in every packaged food that is made from any material grown with pesticides, herbacides, fungacides, larvacides, pasteurized or homogenized (which is pretty much everything not grown organcically including animals who are fed these foods-wheat, dairy and meat are expecially acidic and mucus forming) create a fog around your mind also and you are not able to see all the magic of the Universe that is present around you miss so much of the bigger picture. It is well to remember that thoughts are things and what you are feeding your mind you are feeding your body and vice-versa. It is cyclic in that one thing feeds the other, and it is more difficult to maintain a peaceful state of mind when you are eating animals who died filled with fear. That energy is stored in their body as cortisol, a stress hormone that floods their flesh when they die. So essentially, if you are eating fear, you are living out of fear based thinking. This is where so much scarcity thinking comes from...we live on a truly overflowing abundant planet, but a mental mindset of scarcity prevents us from seeing it and since we are tied together by the collective conscience, you are actually hurting everyone when you consume dead food. On a cooked food diet, a walk through the woods was always pretty boring for me. As a raw foodist it is like walking through a fairytale...completely unbelievable. A long drive, or a jaunt through the city is now filled with angel nudges to look here, see this sign, a running dialog with a collection of guides I am surrounded, protected and loved by.
Ten years ago, I was mentally preparing for this time in my life when the people in my life would be faced with the choice of changing or transitioning back into the spirit world and leaving room only for those who want to be here in love and joy on the planet. My Mom died last summer. My lifelong companion animal Yago left this past week. Others in my family are going to follow closely behind, my father very soon. Ten years ago I looked to this time with dread and impending grief...today I can only look on with gratitude and understanding for all I have experienced and all I am continuing to experience. I am happy and OK with the choices others make...I have true peace that I never knew existed and I have reached the understanding that it is not my job to save anyone. I only have time and energy to help people who want help, and that is what keeps me going...the joy it brings...and so I have given myself the task of going through the pile of old family photos to bring them up to the current level of technology and to have a nice album to preserve them...so many faces of my father looking at the camera, in a youthful able looking body, but always that glazed expression, cigarette and drink in hand, hiding behind his true power that was too overwhelming for him to ever take the reigns of...and I smile with only love for him, and what I learned from him...knowing that I will leave a totally opposite legacy for my children...the ones we have been waiting for~

What I dream up for my children

...that you will soon know the joy of joyful tears, that sad tears will go the way side and that you understand first hand when momma cries she isn't always sad.

...that you forgive my quirks and understand that character flaws are little gifts we receive from our own childhoods and that if you some day see mine in you, you can smile at them after-all.

...that you sculpt and nurture every incredible astounding talent with which you have been gifted...the opportunity to change the world lies straight ahead.

...that my life's work and study is passed to you vicariously so you needn't do all the toiling I do

...that by the time you are creating and inspiring the next generation, we will have worked out the flaws that accumulated over time so you may birth happy well kept children onto a planet of paradise

...that my mistakes are lessons you don't have to learn on your own

...that we are all learning together and improving everyday on our path of discovery

...that I may open enough to receive that which you have come here to bless me with~

when the student is ready...

...the teacher will come. This is an adage I read early on in my life studies of the spiritual side of things. I suppose I have been on what some term "a spiritual journey" since I was old enough to ask the question, "why am I here?" (which was VERY young...maybe my daughter's age, 7ish...and wonder things like, how do I breath? What is making my heart beat? I would look out at the vastness of the stars in the night sky and wonder, "If the Universe stops, what is stopping it?" I looked for answers in science...I loved studying bugs, rocks and chemical reactions...yes I was a nerd, but I prefer dork, thanks...that suits my goof-ball side better. So I respond as well to the term "spiritual journey" as I do "hippie" or "tree hugger." The response in my body to people's desire to label and put you in a box is,"blech, I don't want to be in a box--let me out." I never went to church...I wondered always, "What IS God" instead of Is there a God...I never questioned whether or not there was a creator, I just wondered what was the nature of creation...why did things appear the way they appeared in so much as so much didn't make sense. So I think of it as less of a journey, and more of an innate nature and consistent never ending desire to understand more about the nature of existence and my place in it. Around my pre-teen years I started to wonder about the more intangible experiences like ESP, knowing the phone was gonna ring right before it did, or that a particular person was about to walk through the door. I was a teenager when my grandmother revealed to me that she had pre-cognitive dreams that on a couple of occasions intuited winning lottery numbers...just enough to save her ass a time or two--she gave me the book "The Celestine Prophesy" when she was finished reading it and this was the next level from pouring over her library of Extra Sensory Perception books...she also was the one who introduced me to the Indian avatar Satya Sai Baba whose words in books I began to gobble up with the appetite of a black hole seeking the light. When I found the Urantia book I sent her a copy and also "Conversations With God" and something from the Kryon series, who was introduced to me by my daughter's Dad. After my daughter was born I opened a book about Ramtha, which, curiously and for no particular reason, I had picked up at a thrift store many many years earlier and never opened, but it was the perfect time for me, of course, as I began to be open to the natural timing of the Universe I began to see it more clearly.
So pretty early on in my "spiritual studies" I heard the adage, "when the student is ready, the teacher will come." I wondered and wondered all the time, where is my teacher? When will I be ready? I expected an enlightened guru to appear before me and take me under their wing and make me a better person, full of the wisdom of all the expanse of time. I have laughed outloud to realize the teacher was here all along, gobbling up the books and the experiences becoming its own enlightened guru...becoming a teacher, and now that the teacher is ready, the students are coming. We are all students and teachers to each other, if we only look. I love that I have the answer to your question...I love that you have the answer to mine...my friends and co-creators of paradise on Earth. I love this amazing astoundingly beautiful planet so much...in this moment I can't think of a single place in creation I would rather be...and that is our mission here...to strive to make this place a place where everybody wants to be. It is a current impedment that a greater percentage of the planet's population doesn't want to be here. We will turn that around and when we do we will evolve exponentially. It is very clear to me now, why there are so many "problems" that appear before us on our way to where we are going. It would take a whole other blog to explain that, but the bottom line is, when you start filling your body with only joyful energy, you will soon start seeing the solutions instead of the problems...then you realize that the answer is simple...you work on your own little pile and let everyone else work on their own little pile until the fog clears and we start teaming up to work on the bigger picture...we are doing this now...join the chorus by finding your voice...find your voice by cleaning the toxins out of your body...I've said it a hundred times and I'll say it many hundreds more, I'm sure...the answer is right in front of you, at your feet, growing in your garden~

Things you can't plan...

The astoundingly beautiful Universe is always always and in all ways, conspiring to do you the highest good, even if you can't always recognize it as such...but you can choose to become a reverse paranoid and begin to believe that the Universe is conspiring to make your every moment full of the most joy possible...and soon you will have no choice but to acknowledge such experience.
Three years ago when my unexpected, and gradual transition to optimum health began, I was a meat eater and I didn't even like raw foods hardly at all...maybe the occasional strawberry or chunk of pinanpple...a salad with a good gooey cooked dressing...now a days, I thrive, not just joyfully on 100% raw foods, but with more joy than I ever thought was possible on this planet. It changes everything, and it cannot be explained in words, only experience through action. Now when people tell me, "but I could never live without meat" I just smile, and think, you are right...you will die trying not to...slowly and painfully of heart disease or cancer or some other such muck.
There is a balance to be found while doing a total life make-over. I have finally become comfortable with being a little ahead of the pack in the future I know we are all headed toward...I can relate to how you feel about your current lifestyle, and yet, I could not give up my current lifestyle if I was paid for it...cause I never want to turn back to a life of emptiness and lack of fullfillment...I choose to live each joy filled moment of inspiration to it's fullest intent...and someday I hope you will too...if that day is today and I can do anything to help you let me know.
Best wishes on your journey...I'll see you out there~

Integrel intergers

Todays topic, hell, call it what it is -rant- is integrity. When one chooses a life of strong intention and integrity, a lack of integrity anywhere near you becomes more than just an elephant in the room...it is a blinding light in your face that even sunglasses can't deploy. I have been dealing with all sorts of levels of lack of integrity in various areas of my life. It is one of the shadows revealed when you shine a bright light on your life. When you are focused, grounded and well aware without emotional attachement, you can see lack of integrity coming at you a mile away, as clear as you can hear a lie in your face. Sometimes we just want to believe something so much that we choose to do just that. But sometimes you see something so painfully obvious that you can't ignore it. So what do we do with these issues in our current times of growing awareness? I tend to call people on their bullshit and demand for them to face themselves. That's what I did when a neighbor treated me with a lack of respect and less than honest intentions...after hemming and hawing he was resolved to be forced to come to me in a place of integrity. We were all improved from that interaction. I was actually reprimanded for my extreme view in thie area (because most people seem to prefer to sweep the ugly under the carpet, I would rather look at it and handle it in the best way we can come up with) in a court room semi-recently when I noted outloud that somebody was acting with a lack of integrity. I was then asked if I would like to be accused of acting without integrity, to which I replied, "I think that if I WAS acting without integrity, I should be called on it so that I could look at it...and if I wasn't, it wouldn't bother me because I would know the accusation wasn't true."
So if I call you on your bullshit, I am probably, in my way--not neccesarily specifically, it's just my way--trying to help you grow. But you may be able to treat me with a lack of integrity a couple of times before I choose to not have you in my life if that is an option...and if I am not connected to you by children or financial obligations, than that is an option, no matter what. Life is too short to have negativity near me, even dearly loved family and friends do not get my valuable time if they consistently fling fear-based words and actions in my direction.
The exponentialiaty of our planetary evolution is doubling ever and ever more often, which in layman's terms means, we are running out of time to accomplish our goals...which makes time the MOST precious commodity...and if I feel mine being wasted I will divert it to where it is more useful in the grand scheme of things...and you should too...work on you for the planet...and I'll work on me for the planet.

Love love love...is all there is~

"I'll work on me for you, and you work on you for me" -David Wolfe

We are on a mission here on our planet and some of us are just now remembering what that is, some of us have known for a while and have spent our lives educating ourselves and are now in a position to educate others...it's really simple really...we are here to take back our planet and create paradise on earth...and learn learn learn through the process. IF we are steadfast in our desire to evolve ourselves for the better, we can't help but affect those around us...because light is ever present...all around and within us...the brighter we shine the more that shine invades all that surrounds us. Could it be that the answer is so simple it's right in front of us but most are looking right past it into a vortex of man created misery and not even looking at it? YES!...that is an illusion which simply illustrates the power of the mind to distract itself from its true purpose.

Every day you make a choice...where are you gonna focus your attention? The answer is: today, I choose to take the next highest step in my self-fullfillment and upliftment and extend that to every person I meet today on an energetic level. You wanna go a step further? Extend that to ALL fellow beings. Peace IS possible...it starts with getting off a hate filled diet of destruction...fill your body mind and spirit with positivity...in all ways, and always. Your food grows from the earth and is unaltered before it reaches your mouth. "It's easier to sneek up on lettuce than a rabbit." D.W.

We spend so much time in the past and in the future that it becomes challenging to listen to that quiet voice that exists only here and now, in your very present moment...get present with yourself and BE HERE NOW! It's happy here...joy filled...we are in paradise already, if we choose to see it...and the more of us choose it everyday with clarity and presence, we create a space for others to make this choice...put down the tools of destruction that aren't in benefit to anything at all...fear based decision making ceases to exist...because the bottom line is always not how much money is in your bank account, but how much love is in your heart...and your heart is bigger than you know and can hold much more than you have yet felt...remember the grinch who stole christmas, the day his heart grew three sizes...this is your moment...make a visual in your mind and grow your heart...let the light in and let it flow outward...ask not for forgiveness, but ask to forgive...and be ready for more joy than you have ever known...and be ready to be surprised by your own inspirations--yes, all is well in the world and all is on schedule and all is as it should be...but let's grow that in ourselves and in others so that what is well and right gets better every day...ready to start thinking more clearly? You are so dehydrated you have lost your thirst...put down whatever you are drinking and get a glass of spring water--it has a consciousness higher than budda...water is so evolved it cannot even incarnate into a human body...but you can drink it and be inspired right now, then go plant yourself in the sun and make nutrients by simply being...breath deeply, so deeply and smile...now just try to feel depressed...can't do it smiling in the sun...not possible.

I'll love me for you and you love you for me~

Happy Mothers Day

To all of you who have procreated...congrats on your fine hard work! I had a wonderful day of being fully present and treating myself with great respect while extending myself to planetary service...and here is a funny reminder I found on my new guilty pleasure "facecrack" about remembering not to take it all too seriously...love love love:

I was having an out-of-body experience and almost astral-traveled away yesterday, so I grounded myself and got centered with the help of my spirit guides and then the phone rang, and sensing the negative vibrations, I threw the I-Ching and checked my numerology chart, nearly having a primal, but my energy was too blocked. So I did bioenergetics and self-parenting, took some flower essences and ate an organic oat bran ginseng muffin, but my inner child wasn't feeling nurtured yet.

To fix this, I had a Rice Dream Frozen Pie, which, of course, made me hyper, so I did the relaxation response technique I had just learned at the Self Healing Angst Tree Defoliating Center while listening to my subliminal tapes. But that left me feeling depersonalized, so I did some polarity work, foot reflexology, and past life regression, then rebirthed myself, and called Moon Beam, my body worker, to make an appointment for a Shiatsu/Reike/Rolfing/Feldenkreis/Swedish/Japanese deep tissue massage.

Unfortunately, she flaked out and never returned my call, so I decided to energize my crystals and do some positive imagery because all my visualization techniques and affirmations made my space feel invaded. So to get empowered, I got a psychic reading from Mother Heart Love around the issue of my assertiveness so I could feel my radiance and have some energy for my psycho calisthenics and inversion swing before my harmonic brain wave synergy session. This made me more focused for my actualization seminar, holistic healing class and dream workshop, which in turn made me clearer for my Gestalt behavioral cognitive transpersonal Rechian-Jungian-Freudian-Ericksonian session at the hot springs, but my aura was too weak for my trance channeling group, so I fasted until noon to recharge my chakras.

At that point, I sensed my intuition was high and my cycle was focused, so I turned on my ion generator to open up for my Neural Linguistic Programming session. But I needed to have my pyramid recharged before my guided synchronicity meditation, so I got some craniosacral therapy, which aligned me for the fire walk between my tarot card reading and my sensory deprivation tank appointment. But even after all that, I felt what I truly needed was a meaningful relationship to mirror myself, so I went to my personal shaman, and then to my guru, but they were no help, so instead I went to the Intensive Whole Life Earth Rebirth Cosmic Expo Symposium Workshop to find someone who really knew what was going on. That didn't help either, so I locked myself in a calcium coated Orgone Box and meditated until 9PM.

None of it really worked for me, so I got stoned on raw chocolate and went hiking... and dude... did I feel right with the world!

Overtly overload overly joyful not taken for granted

The last couple weeks were so chock full of experience on so many levels...I barely know how to put it all to words...spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally, so much growth crammed into such a short space of time in the grande scheme of things--I am still assimilating it all...cliches are such because they encapsulate such profound compact lesson placed into consciousness like a snapshot, passed person to person so simply and easily that their meaning so often totally lost. WE are the ones we have been waiting for. BE the change you wish to see in the world. I AM.
There is a fundamental flaw in the collective conscience...we have closed the heart chakra, so many of us, because of how painful it is to truly feel...and to attempt to feel something again, there are so many vices leading to addictions, keeping our greatest minds in cycles of pain and insecurity and blowing opportunity after opportunity...when you meet your twin soul, and your heart chakra unexpectedly flies open, a switch you had no idea how to prepare for is opened...I guess there is nothing much to do but fumble your way through it until it makes sense...but it is worth it...my prayer for all of you reading these words is to look in the mirror and find out who is sleeping behind your eyes...because the world is waiting on you...and now is all there is.
With my twin soul and I in the same location, high on mountain tops with two Crystal children, we effortlessly co-created record temperatures in Alaska...what a beautiful few days...thankyou my angels for bringing him to me~

two kids on a bench in the middle of nowhere

Mountain Momma

The Nutty Professor

Kally reads to you from her book

I have had to embrace and become Kally, I am doing this for the Universe and you, the Universe becomes you, you are the Universe and you...I do this for you all and for all of you (don't mind my enjoyment, it is a joyful journey to show myself to you)...to all my friends:

These things
are not going to happen anymore
in reality
or in your mind
you threw me away so effortlessly
for the finality of all time
I watch them all
in their cozy boats
floating joyfully out to sea
I have been them
and I am still them
but I can't see you
and they can't see me
I can be a brillionaire
I can put diamonds on a page
and I can take that story
to the bank or to the stage
or I can fly it to the moon
where I will find you
in the waiting room
waiting for a transfusion
like it don't make no sense
like walking all the way to the moon
was just an accident
I can focus
or I can step back
I can burn up a room
or I can dim the lights
I can jump rope
double time
I can fathom a routine
that brings home the trophy
I can let it slip away
or I can be me
I can focus
or I can step back
I can bring home the bacon
or just get by on a snack
I can hold the answer
and let it slip from my hand
I can pluck the roses
from the dessert
of the promised land
I can let you put me in your car
I can let you drive me home
but we might never
get where we're going
or I can stand at the bumper
and shout it all out
all the things we need to talk about
everything we just might
do
today

YES YOU CAN!!

There IS a cure for any problem you are now experiencing...it doesn't come in a bottle, a pill or a bag of cookies. It can't be seen, touched or heard...it is a lifestyle change and an energetic realignment...it can be triggered by changing your diet today...addictions, emotional pain and stress and disease will fall away from you...you will move into Universal flow...your heart will open to accept love and you will love yourself enough to become a beacon of light. It is a process of releasing years of emotional tension and toxic intake...it doesn't happen overnight...there are no short-cuts...it is challenging-AT FIRST...but soon you will forget that you were ever miserable, useless, tired, disgruntled, pissed, trampled on and over and stalled...these feelings may continue to come up as you release lifetimes of stuffed emotions, but they will longer haunt you and stay in your daily wanderings...instead you will be filled with joy, abundance, appreciation, gratitude and love love love...start today by filling your grocery bag with raw organic produce and felling your stomach, heart and soul with the bounty of your Mother Earth. And go for a walk in the beautiful sun, make vitamin D and seratonin...pump some fresh air into your lungs...put the cigarettes down and learn to breath again...your body, your planet and your spirit will thank you with so much love you cannot comprehend until felt...go feel something~

Dear Flutterbye

A poem:

Even though you blindly trample
the lotus bloom I planted at your foot
when I leaned to affectionately wash your toes
you press the pistle into the ground
and plant the seeds
that will grow
from the light I surround you with
in my mind
and in future or from above
you will look back to see
the beautiful bush that has bloomed
from finally understanding me

With love~

I love this song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uK_E7xS7AtQ

Switchfoot- Dare you to Move

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistence
The tension is here
Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

So you say its your birthday

Today is one year raw for me...and to celebrate I compiled a poem made from my last 30 text messages, in recending order:

can I mail you mix CDs?
Your voice made my balls explode
The wait for my haircut is going longer than I thought
Not going to make it to the computer tonight. Tomorrow for sure:( (editors note: he made it to the computer after a slight protest)
I want to fly up on () and fly back on (). Book it.
Unless that will be your time of the month.
(...) has huge junk...I can't compare.
You singing to me blew my mind..
I'll be online in an hour.
Close your eyes and look at me
Have a good night my love...soon our worlds will collide.
If God is water you and I are two snowflakes
I want to come home...to you...where I belong...
Humming "Stand up" while I work.
11:11 as I lay to sleep...
I'm back online
Stop teasing me...ha ha
Our house needs to be off the grid.
I got your goodies, I love you.
I'll be online in 3 hours
Wake up...I'm online now going to record () tonight...no time later.
Armor is one of my favs
My heart is one and whole with you
Wake up love...I'm off work early and online.
I love you
Must I bend the sky to realize...
Should I give my 2 weeks notice?
The warm fuzzy feeling is still in me...and I still love you.
I'm falling asleep in your astral embrace...I love you so dearly.

happy birthday 2 me

It is 2 days till my "one year" 100% raw birthday...I didn't mark the day I went raw on my calendar and count the days the way I once did as an AA coin collector...I made one of those handy online counters I can refer to once in a while as it keeps track for me. I considered doing something fun like throwing a potluck party...but in the end, as I have been so introspective lately, I decided to subconsiously begin the long dreaded process of unturning every subconscious stone and found some big ones to get started on...here are some of my blocks...thoughts buried deeply that I would now like to turn over and release...some are obvious...some are buried deeper...people are coming into my life to reflect them to me at this time and I take just an honorary moment of silence to thank you for your presence at this time as we are all growing and learning together...I see your smiling face in our bright and cheerful future...so as I work to create the dream of my life into manifest in my reality, funny little things come from underneath...couple days ago I dreamed, that I received an e-mail response to a sponsorship request that basically told me I was an idiot for thinking this was a viable plan...I uncovered from that, stuck in my subconsious...my trouble with follow through is so tied in with a stuck belief that my ideas are not valuable...childhood affirmations anyone? Money is hard to get...it doesn't grow on trees, we can't afford that, times are tough...what a lot of malarky...get it out...get it out of me! Subconscious buried belief numero uno...people disapoint you...they leave...they don't come back, they don't care, they don't love you, you are unlovable, worthless, boring, stupid, a nuisance...get out of my head...out out out! Here are my new positive affirmations:
Money comes to me effortlessly
I am fearless
I am worthy
my ideas are worthwhile to pursue
I accept abundance
my work is a joyful livelihood